haiz...

dunno what i sud feel n say now...

the feeling is weird when someone u care of nvr care bout ur feeling... nvr think of ur feeling...

mayb im not so important in her heart??

not even a place inside thr...o her frenz is even better than me...

do u really take ur heart out to love sumone?

nvr hardwork 2 make ur partner feel happi...o even care of him...

nvr change...idiot turtle tat oways trust wil hav a day wit u...but the person he love jz spoilt n spoilt the love...u told me tat dunwan puppy love?? but do u think u work on it b4?? haiz...

中秋节

当一个人在家时真的会觉得很孤单

那在中秋节时一个人在家呢？

更惨的是中秋节一个人在家还要肚子疼...

嗨～还要啃书...明天考试...够惨了呗？

等什么？他不会关心你的...

朋友始终都是他的一切...

有朋友陪还需要你吗？

他根本没想过你啊...

算吧...都是别期望...只会失望...习惯就好...

中秋节快乐咯!

BUT??

Do u stil rmb wat u said laz time??
u said u hope i can fetch u 2 sch everyday...
hope the person send u 2 sch is me...
den i ans sry i cant do tat for u...u said nvm cox im not at ktn...

Laz week...i so excited tat i can come back for long long time...2 weeks 2 weeks u noe??
I was so excited tat can back...
i stil rmb i told u in phone...
I was happi tat can back so i can fetch u 2 sch everyday every morning dy...
U noe how joy is me?? cox i think like tis i can c u more...at least once a day...i stil remind my dad i nid 2 use car when i was back here...

But??
4 days dy...i nvr send u 2 sch since i was back...
i dunwan?? nope...u giv me the reason is cox u dunwan let him c u wit me...
haha...how stupid i was?? im the person wit u now...
but cant even send u 2 sch n let him c tat...
he can fetch u when u hav no transport...
u told me not 2 feel im lose 2 him?? but now?? im totally LOSE...
y it could b worse til like tis??
jz a small small wish...jz wanna c u once a day...izit so diff??
izit im back has no giving u any feeling??
U dunno i miss u?? o i sud say u nvr miss me??

Stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...how stupid i was...
altod noe thr wil not b any change...i so hope it din happened???
haha...i was fully hurt...how could u can treat me so so cold???
how could u hav no tis feel wanna put back off??
haha...i was so stupid...hope so many for wat???
i tod u won let tis happen...but???
i think u plan 2 say it out long time ago??
how come u can stil like ntg for tis break up???
i dunno....i cant...i tears every nite...do u noe tat?? nope....
u love me?? haha.....so hurt i cry while laughing u noe??

很久没写了...
今天本来是不错的一天...因为一个下午已可以和你通了两次电话..
但是却被一个人的留言而彻底抹杀了我的心情...
嗨~应该怎么说呢??
我也不懂...鼻有点酸的感觉...
心里不懂什么滋味...
不想吗??
为什么不能呢??
你的来电~~能说什么呢??

我已经很久没写部落格了...为什么?
因为我最近都过得不错...
但这次真的很不开心...哭了一个晚上...但还是于事无补...
所以想来这发泄一下...
每次一想到你昨晚说的...心就会不知觉的抽一下...
我担心的来了...你要的男友是可以每天陪在你身边的...而我却不能做到...
我不想陪你吗?不！你可有想过我是多么的想念你?? 多么的想留在你身边吗?
我这个傻瓜前几天都在倒数几时能回去...真的很想每分每秒都在你身边...但你不知...
你跟我说你要的男友是可以每天在你身边的...那是我很可笑咯?
我每天都会担心...可是你一次又一次的让我担心...
很无助...真的觉得很无助...
当你无助时...他还是第一个你会想到的人...
真的很不开心！！！！我不想再哭了...

Once again...

I hav the feeling again...cham...
mm seh dak all those time wit u...but i noe it cant freeze thr for us...
really happi can b wit u laz nite...feel comfortable when v r at the beach..
staring the sky n all those starz...hug u n hearing those songs...muackz><
(altod got so many so zai at thr...LOLxD)
n watch the drama wit u...chat wit u...feel good u noe??
thx for acc me til so late...sry...make u late back again...
dear...take good care of urself o...recover soon...i wan healthy sweetie... =D
C ya~

No Promised

Jz can b frustrated when meet up something u cant control o out of ur control...
i dun like it...dunno y le??
drinking "vinegar"?? erm...mayb...
but cant control wat...cox im stil ntg 4 u...
thr r stil many chances for u 2 meet up the rite one...
wat m i thinking??haiz...

Miss U like Crazy. . .

far apart now..
tis distance love is on the line now...
i cant take care u when u r sick...sry...
i cant beside u when u sud nid me...sry...
feel cant do anyt for u now...
dunno y...when c he care bout u...wil feel unhappi n no mood...
haiz...i small gas??i think so...but cant blame oso...cox no one knows...
feel myself unuse...sry my sweetie...
cant beside u always..n i miss u badly...
miss u like crazy...

L.O.N.E.L.Y

feel lonely now...
cant hold hand wit u...
cant hug hug wit u...
cant kiss wit u...
today really feel down tat u wil go back ktn...
when sent u go bus station...n get into bus...
really mm seh dak...
on the way back...i had think back wat v hav done in this few days
really feel happi...but it makes me feel lonely oso...
u not beside acc me when i take lrt...cant hold ur hand...cant hug u n chat wit u...
u not beside acc me 2 walk from lrt station to my condo...
when i buy the lrt ticket...it is not 2 anym...but jz alone...
dear...i really miss u so much...really hope u beside now...
love u so much....
(tears)

Muackz

Dunno y im feel moody from now...feel like mm seh dak u...
altod now u stil bside...but jz think tat u wil go back after tis...i can feel lonely...
really hope now u can oways bside...pui me around like yest..
whole day v stay together...nvr think tat b4...really...but happi wit tat...
the moment wit u really relax n comfortable...hope it nvr end...altod i noe impossible...
this 2 days past in speed...sweetie...i wil miss u after tis...i noe tat...=(

I LOVE U

is time 2 back KL again...
feel mm seh dak tim...
especially mama...she is so love us...
she do everythings base on us...
she is a superwoman...really...can done all housework by herself altod she dy 72yo...
family oways on the top of her mind...she care bout all family members...
muackz...tis is my mama...my lovely mama...
I LOVE U....T.T

Hope u beside. .

Miss U...miss U so much...
hope u beside...lye on my shoulder...round my arms n fall aslp...
hope u beside...chat wit me...play wit me...take photo wit me...
hope u beside...hold my hand n hang around...
hope u beside...so tat i can hug u n kiss u now...
I really miss U my sweetie...do u noe it??

重视...难过

有些事是不是应该不那么重视呢？
当你重视的事情不如你预期的...
只会让自己更难过...

Sunday 30 of May 2010

Yeah~!!can meet wit my sweetie again=)

so happi n excited for tis...kaka...

waiting n waiting for tis day 2 come...

muackz...miss u so much my sweetheart=)

Me?

His feeling is taken seriously...but mine??
Do u really feel im not sayang u??
sry...mayb i cant do everything for u as him...
haiz...

Small Gas. . .

What can i do for u??
Jz feel what i do now not as much as he do...
i seems nvr appear o cross over ur diary...o even blog...
what he do for u...can get appreciation from u...
erm..how 2 say???jz feel im not as important as i think in ur mind...
he hav the right 2 publicize 2 make anyt...but im not...
really unhappi 2 c tat u can appreciate all the things he do for u even small matter in ur blog...
but nvr mention bout me...
when wit him...cant sms wit me??wit others ny can??
secretly??k...im small gas...im admit for tis...Sry...

My Princess. . .

21st May 2010...1.26 am dy....so fast...the month wit u really like light passing...
stil rmb 6th of April...our 1st date...n when v start...
our 1st mv..Iron Man...
our 1st lunch..Red Flora cafe...
sing k together...
thr is many...many n many...
18th of May...tis day wil b my most romantic days...
i woke up early in the morning jz 2 prepare a candle dinner for u...
n make those surprise 4 u...I nvr imagine i can do so much for a gal...but u...my princess...
n luckily...u can feel the romantic n get the surprise...altod im not make it perfectly...
20th of May...v hang out for almost half day...i really mm seh dak u...when u kiss me n hug me...i hope tat the moment can b freeze...so tat it wil stop thr...i was blur when u get out from my car...feel tat i hav lost everything....
I love u...really love u so much...i hope u really can accept tis...n wait me dear...
i promised i wun change my mind...
Muackz...sry for being selfish....

Funk

M i in love now??
erm...i hope im...but seems not...
how could i hav this feeling???
dunno......haiz.....
nid go KL for my study dy...funk here...
yest nite really wonderful...i oso cant imagine i had done so much for her...haha
altod it is a closed love...hope she happi lar...
today past wit moody again...
y i could so emo for today???funk again...

生日快乐

最后还是一样...
不去吗?我知道没可能的...
把自己想得太重要了吧?
她是可以没有你的...
你的祝福吗?
她根本不需要你...
算吧...生日快乐...

sry. . .

Sry dear...i noe i make u unhappi n no mood again...
no nex time k???sry...hope u can forgiv me...muackz

无言

感觉不到安全感
你每次都让我感觉你和他还有机会
很无助
难道不是吗？
真的很害怕
算吧
你永远不会去解释

《我的心真的受伤了》

窗外阴天了
音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了

灯光也暗了
音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了
人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

电话响起了
你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了
是你变了
灯光熄灭了
音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了
我的心真的受伤了 

Finally. . .

Hope the decision i had made for tis time is the rite one...

Buoy

M i a buoy for u??
i feel myself like a stupid...
y i stil cant wake up for tis??
jz bcox i fall in deeply??
You oways said dunwan c me unhappi...
but u noe y I unhappi??
Im oways garnished n endure...
but stil Im not the person who standing out as ur bf...
can i cope it??can i sharing a gf wit others??
NOPE~!!i can tell u i really cant accept it...

依然屌～

超人不会飞

妈妈说 很多事别太计较
只是使命感找到了我 我睡不着
如果说 骂人要有点技巧
我会加点旋律 你会觉得超屌
我的枪 不会装弹药
所以放心 不会有人倒
我拍青蜂侠 不需要替身
因为自信是我绘画的颜料
我做很多事背后的意义并非你们想象
拍个电视剧为了友情和一些人的梦想
收视率在高 也难看开我的伟大理想
因为我的人生虚假多以被那假象
我不知道何时变成了所谓的那榜样
被狗仔拍跟他比中指那要道歉的模样
怎样
我唱的歌词要有点文化
因为随时会被当教材
CNN能不能等英文好一点再访
时代杂志封面能不能重拍
随时随地注意形象
要控制饮食不然就跟杜莎夫人蜡像的我不像
好莱坞的中国戏院 不是有很多手印 脚印
何时才能看见我的掌

如果超人会飞
那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界
会让我觉得好一些
拯救地球好累
虽然有些疲惫
但是我还是会
不要问我哭过了没
因为超人不能流眼泪

唱歌要拿最佳男歌手
拍电影也不能只拿个最佳新人
你不参加颁奖典礼就是没礼貌
你去参加就是代表你很在乎
得奖时你感动落泪
人家就会觉得你夸张做作
你没表情别人就会说太嚣张
如果你天生这表情
那些人甚至会怪你妈妈
结果最后是别人在得奖
你也要给予充分的掌声与微笑
开的车不能太好
住的楼不能太高
我到底是一个创作歌手还是好人好事代表
专辑一出就必须是冠军
拍了电影就必须要大卖
只能说当超人真的好难

如果超人会飞
那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界
会让我觉得好一些
拯救地球好累
虽然有些疲惫但我还是会
不要问我哭过了没
因为超人不能流眼泪

谢谢

不要觉得每一个人对你好是应该的...
应该对每一个对你好的人说声谢谢...
爸妈...谢咯
谢你们把我生下来...给我的一切一切
嬤嬤...谢咯
谢你那么辛苦地把我带大...虽然我不那么听话...只让你操心...
爷爷...谢咯
谢你教会我许多东西...我真的很佩服你
我的叔叔婶婶姑姑姑丈...谢咯
谢你们那么的关心我...谢谢
姐...谢咯
只有你能细心地聆听我的心声...在我失落的时候安慰我
兄弟们...谢咯
你们总是在我不开心的时候陪着我
还有你...谢咯
你给我希望...让我开心...让我觉得有被爱的感觉

真的非常谢谢你们...爱你们喔！=）

pls. . .

today was the 2nd times...
i noe i wil make her unhappi again...
but she stil seems dunno wat i wan...
i jz hope v can hav a good memory here...
cox v really cant do anyt at here since the present of him...
dear...do u get wat i mean???
y cant u trust me tat i can stay tis feeling for a long time??
i can wait...i can wait wat i wan...i jz wan u...

Dream. . .

what m i waiting 4??
waiting for whole day...
but i noe it is impossible...
dun dream dy...

Ignore. . .

M i rite???
can anybody tell me wat im doin now is rite o wrong??
actually u may ignore it...

Pikom PC Fair

end dy....really feel tis 3 days past vry fast..
how could tis b???
feel fun wit tat..feel vry vry happy during working days...tis is the 1st time...haha..
n happi tat can working wit u....feeling good^^
n u all...really syok!!!hope it nvr end...

U

Theres oways some ppl who wil oppose wat u do...
I accept tat mayb i had done wrong...
but can they b rational b4 saying o doin something??
beg 2 U...dun b so rude..n pls dun make her unhappi again..

碎

碎

Sorry. . . .

The feeling has changed...altod i noe u stil love me...
but i hope u wil oso noe tat my situation...im feeling stress wit u...
i care bout the feeling of ur family members...tats y i wil feel tat was a big prob...
n the feeling 2 u dy changed...it makes me feel difficult 2 b wit u anym u noe?
altod i dy tried...i hope u can understand tat..love cant b force...n love cant b block...
I wil go thru wit my feeling...sry...hope u can accept it...

Stubborn

actually i noe wat u wan...
u wan him but at the same time u dunwan 2 lost me...
n i oso can feel tat b wit u again...u stil treat me as a best fren...o ji mui...
who can make u happi all the time...
sometimes i really feel im stupid...altod i noe all tat...i stil stubborn 2 ignore...
cox i love u...u wont noe n understand how much i love u...

Decision

finally i had make the decision...it was a harsh decision...altod i was sad at tat time...
but i feel tat she was ntg when heard tat...haha...satire rite??
nvm...i noe she was so tired between me n him....
i dunwan she feel any guilty anym...
hope tis decision wil b the best way 2 solve the prob...
Anyway...i jz hope her happi everyday...
Not a Happi day---11th April 2010

为什么？

隐瞒吗？
容忍吗？
最好的方法吗？
我想不到你在想什么？
你是想要我放弃吗？
为什么你那么的猜不透？
我很害怕..一次比一次的害怕..
我觉得你根本就不想离开他..
你让我觉得我真的很傻..

搞笑

哪一条牙膏 在对我傻笑 嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹 好快乐少了人唠叨
蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好
我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬
这么多年 早就喜欢 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道 你好不好
我们的小狗 食量变好小 眼神里常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床位 少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着
我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
我在搞笑 却在最后 眼泪拼命掉
你的离开 失去多少 我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳 对谁炫耀
还在搞笑 是否拥有 麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌 却避不开 催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到 你好不好

today din post any drawing...cox i hav no mood 2 draw 4 today...
i hav start moody since she told me bout tat...
make me feel vry uncomfortable...n the tears bcom uncontrollable...
when im looking at the photo...
i can feel she dy make the decision act...
Feel all wun b real anym...altod i tod theres a chance...
sry...i really feel vry sad n moody 4 today...
I hav totally break the promised...

Sry...